If you ever feel like your not making a difference, know that you are, for better or for worse.
Two years ago, almost exactly, I had a very challenging moment while working at a daycare. We were on the playground and I had to send this little boy, who was 5 at the time, to the fence (our timeout spot) for putting dirt in someone’s hair repeatedly. The boy screamed and threw both his shoes at me, then a rock, then he called me a stupid little b%@$#, among other things, while kicking at me. I don’t remember exactly what I asked him, maybe why he was acting like this, maybe telling him this wasn’t nice. But I do remember his answer clear as day ” you hate me!” ” I don’t hate you Name” ” yes you do! Because everyone hates me! How could anyone love me!”. My heart broke and tears filled my eyes, I told him ” I love you Name, I love you so much!” “No you don’t!” While he continued to kick at me and throw pebbles in my face. “Name if I didn’t love you I wouldn’t still be here, and I love you because Jesus loves you more than you can ever imagine” I just kept telling him that last part over and over until someone finally came to help. I prayed so hard for that little boy, every time his face showed up in my thoughts which was quite a lot for a while.
I haven’t worked there for a long time and had forgotten about that day and the only time one of the kids made me cry like that. Then this past Sunday our small groups at church got mixed up and I had some 2nd graders mixed in with my 1st graders. That little boy was sitting there in front of me, I recognized him right away. I only worked at that location of the daycare for 2 month and was barely in his class so I didn’t think he’d remember me. But a moment later he looks up at me and says “hey, did you work at _______**?” “Yeah I did.” ” You were always my favorite teacher!!” My heart melted as he told me all about how he knows Jesus now and is so excited to get baptized soon!
Our God is so so good! What I did those two months was so small and even if God did choose to use it I never dreamed I would get to see that! I just can’t get over how great our God is! I know God must have put many other people in this little guys life since me, but the fact that I got to be even a small part of his story is just too cool!
It just makes me so much more excited for this next year when I’ll get to be used by God and hopefully a small part of many more stories!
